Whew! I've been waiting for so long to actually say that. It has been three months of bumming around and on the third month, it hit me. Freelancing is okay but I want a real job. The one that gets me up in the morning, the one that gets me to go outside the streets of Manila on my way to the office (yes, office! I want office), the one that lets me meet new people everyday, the one that pays me regularly (good pay of course, lol), and of course, the one where I get to do what I love to do!

I have been illustrating, designing, and even art directing a billboard for the last couple of weeks for big clients and it just makes me so giddy! It's a job I don't mind spending extra hours doing because with all honestly, I can now say "mahal ko ginagawa ko". This is it. I am completely passionate with what I'm doing (PAULIT-ULIT?!?!?!), and the best part is getting paid to do all of it! Nope, that's not it actually. The best part is the environment. Everyday I'm surrounded by creative people who are too nice to help me better my work. =) I am so greatful!

Also, one half of my desk hehe:

I'm finally done with my Portfolio-slash-CV. PDF format done, printing to be done next week!

I also updated my website.

The question remains: WHERE TO APPLY?

LOL

What have I contributed to the society today? Nothing.

Does it bother me? A little.

Does it shrink my ego and break my heart into pieces? Nope.

Proof? "Who says, who says, you're not perfect? Who says you're not worth it?"

If I have continued on the supposed-to-be job some weeks ago, I would be living solo in a cheap pad, have a 9-5 job (plus 3 hour-OT on a conditional basis, aka everyday), and be doing what I love the most, designing. It would also be a thrill for me to go to a grocery shop and tell my mother, "hey, I designed that!", or the nearest sari-sari store and tell ate tindera "ako gumawa ng logo at packaging niyan." (Ate Tindera: "Logo? Ano yon?!")

If only.

But, I decided not to, and I keep telling myself the job wasn't for me for reasons only I can understand, or not. Plus, the "living solo in a cheap pad" was a lie since my parents didn't allow that.

So what keeps me busy nowadays include freelancing gigs (Chikay, get your shit together, it's a freelancing gig not gigs), ordering pizza and burgers online when clock hits 3AM, Faceboook yeah, chatting with lover, and a new design/layout for my website. To make it short, the internet. 

Am I enjoying? Hellshyeah.

It's fun to know I'm not the only person in the world who is unemployed. Hello fella bums! It's true, as cheesy as it may sound, I'm still waiting for the right job. To be honest, my first job was unintentional and sadly made me turn down a lot (by a lot I mean 2) better offers. But if I had not signed that contract a year ago, I wouldn't have met awesome new people who are now I consider as great friends, so yeaaaah, all is good.

I wish people would stop feeling sad for me everytime they ask me what I do now and I tell them I just resigned from my previous job. I'm having a good time doing things for other people while my leg is on top of my desk and my hair smells like coconut, awful person, so what is up with your pouting and shoulder-tapping? I am fucking happy. (Jesus I sound defensive)

Also, this unem--excuseme---funemployment allows me to practice on many fields of designing. I just wanna be able to do everything and the yes-to-all girl during job interviews.

Cheers to funemployment!

I got bored and AI is so cute. Blogspot is such a nifty site, I might transfer lol! Click for full view!

Nothing much! Just me and Carlo and the fact that he makes my heart sing fiddle-doodle-doo and the fact that Illustrator is fun and the fact that I thought it wasn't. ♥

I've been a little busy for the past couple of days. I'm currently doing freelance web designing and I'm so stoked for my first client! We'll be launching their site by September. I also had to make a big decision about this job I really like but eventually I had to not continue on it. No regrets though. I'm not in a hurry, if it comes it comes. =)

Puro sikreto, nag-blog pa ko.

PS: Oh yeah, I might post a video blog after this. It's ridiculous how I never get to post the videos that I make when in fact I know I got only 2 or 3 readers here. #sux2bme 

PPS: Holy shit! I almost forgot about my new tattoo.

Done by a good friend and the craziest bitch I knew in college, Tawnie Tantay. :* I was with here the day she got her first tattoo, we were bored so we decided to give Recto a visit and voila, a koi fish on the left side of her hips. And look ma! Now she's a tattoo artist herself. ♥

Click here for Tattoo Story 1 and here for Tattoo Story 2.